I need a break from my own mind. Sometimes, I seriously wish it would just shut up for a minute. Here’s a little example of how it feels to be in my brain. This is a mild moment, but imagine it at hyperspeed.
It’s noon. I should start thinking about what to make for dinner. We could have pizza. I should make something better than pizza. What about spaghetti? That’s basically the same thing. What about hamburgers? I’m not good at making hamburgers, but I’m good at making stir fry. I should make stir fry. I need rice, soy sauce, and vegetables. What vegetables are in the fridge? None, because I need to go shopping today. I should make a shopping list before I leave. We need milk, cereal, Mountain Dew, water. How much flour do we have left? I might want to bake something soon. I never bake, why would I need more flour? But we do need salt. Why do we go through so much salt? I’ve also been going through paper towels a lot lately. Why did I use half the paper towels yesterday? Oh yeah, Knox got sick in the living room so I cleaned it. I should probably take him to the vet. I can’t afford a vet. How much is a checkup? How much is pet insurance? It is worth it for us to get? Probably not, let’s look it up. Oh, now that I’ve opened my phone, I’m going to check on my Monopoly game. Before I do that, I should probably see if I have any messages. Oh good, a message from work. It’s my day off, but I’ll look at it anyway. I shouldn’t read work emails right now. I should be working on my portfolio. I have a song I need to post soon, but I don’t have the space to record right now, because Tommas is home. Tommas should get a hobby that takes him outside more. That’s mean and I’d miss him too much. Oh my God, what if he gets a hobby that takes him outside more. I won’t ever see him again and he’s going to break up with me. I think I would die. What would happen if I died? Who would take care of Knox? Knox got sick last night. I should get him a vet. Oh wait, I already determined I can’t afford that. Why was I thinking about vets earlier? Oh yeah, I used all the paper towels. I’m also out of shampoo. I should make a shopping list before I go out to buy shampoo. I already started a shopping list. All it says is milk. I also need cereal and water. Maybe I should also get conditioner to match the shampoo. I’m not out yet, but it will save me a trip to the store. Which store should I go to? Walmart is cheaper, but Smith’s is closer. I need to get gas. I like the gas station on the left side of the road better, but it’s easier to get in and out of the gas station on the right. Why do I care about gas stations? I need to go to the store. I don’t want to go to the store right now, I need to do dishes. Which dishes need to be done first, so they’re ready for dinner? I don’t know, I haven’t decided what’s for dinner. This has been exhausting. Maybe we should have pizza.
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