Do you ever listen to someone speak and think, “Wow, I could never imagine treating someone like that”? I’ve had quite a few experiences like that recently. It makes me so angry, I feel like I could throw up sometimes. I am not trying to be a victim or act like I’ve never acted this way before. I’m only human. But I feel like the difference is I try to reflect on my words and actions. I try to see things from others’ perspectives. I try imagining how others would feel if the roles were reverse. Not many people seem to be thinking that way lately. What is up with that? Is there something in the air? Everyone is going through something. Is it really that hard to just be nice to people?
I’ve had to seriously evaluate who I can and can’t trust with certain topics. Someone I used to always be close to has taken it upon themselves to tell me everything I’ve done wrong in a situation. Sometimes, I just want to vent to someone I love without the fear of being ridiculed and cast to the evil side of the story. Someone I considered to be a close friend has suddenly forgot how to think of others. They aren’t taking no for an answer when I don’t have the capacity to do something or go somewhere. A recent situation with this person caused a strain on my relationship with Tommas. That’s the last thing I want happening.
I feel miserable. It hurts. Life is becoming lonely. Lately, my circle of love and trust is getting smaller and smaller. It’s unfortunate, but safer if I just keep to myself.
Going into this new year, I hope everyone takes a moment to step back a bit. Think about your actions and words. How are they effecting others? Your intentions might be kind, but how is your delivery?
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